realize

i know, there is no forever thing in this world. and now, i felt . i was dumbed. and i crying everyday. maybe, at morning and afternoon when i have a lot of activities. i can forgeted that thing. but, when the night is come. i always start to thinking again and again about : why i should to felt this feeling? why i should to get all of this situation? i've tried so hard to give you the best thing that i can do. but, its like, you just play me, you never thinking what i feel.
maybe, its look like im so egois. because, i just thinking about me, not thinking about you. please god, im so tired. i just want to feel a happy life.

but, now i realize, that is not good for me, if i always cry, never accept the real situation. and i know, it will be useless. then, i understand what is the real about life. in this life, you feel something bad, but you will also feel something good. and if you get a very hard problems (something bad) and you got more and more bad. beside that, im sure there is a "happy life" waiting for you. and now, you can just across that journey with a big big smile. and you'll find your happy life.

maaf kalo bhs. inggrisnya agak kacau. lagi sedih soalnya.. :D